Sunday, December 6, 2009

What if....?

We spent as must energy, passion, time and money sharing/showing our fellow co-workers/students/friends/neighbors/family members about Jesus as we spend on the Christmas season? How much different would our lives look like throughout the year? Maybe it is the commercialization of Christmas now or all the $$ that is spend on gifts that are expected or implied, but each year I get more and more frustrated with this holiday and it seems to me that we have gotten so off track that our excuses start making way too much sense.

I am not talking about catch phrases such as "the reason for the season", etc. What I am trying to get at is that those who experience Jesus as their personal savior have the ultimate gift that we do not deserve but have received anyway. Yet, we ( a big finger is pointing towards me!) are so ofter afraid to even bring up the name Jesus amongst those we work with or go to school with or even live next to. Yet, at the same time we get stressed, spend too much $$ and worry about what I need to buy for so and so and how much time we get off and whose house we are going to for "the day".

Maybe it's the holiday season blues that are getting to me but I don't think so. Instead of thinking about this upcoming Christmas and New Years, maybe we need to start thinking about the other 363 days a year and how those days are so much more important that these two aforementioned days....just a thought

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Marriage is Ministry

So I am perusing the library with the girls a few night ago... I have really been enjoying our local library in the last year or so, but I digress. In my perusing, I happen to run across a book that peaks my interest since I am raising daughters: What He Must Be...if he wants to marry my daughter- Voddie Baucham Jr. Since Buttercup and I are on the precipice of having our teenager enter the dating years, I thought it would be worth the read. I have just begin but have already uncovered a few nuggets that have finally gotten me off my butt and starting back on the "blogging train" (no thanks to be chided on a regular basis by Toirdhealbheach Beucail or "Wrenny" as my youngest for some reason decided to call him)

The author was describing the difference of singleness vs marriage as it relates to the Bible, when you mentioned that Marriage is a Ministry and is there no higher calling than marriage? Being raised as a PK and brought up in the Church, I have understood the Biblical significance of marriage but have never really thought of it in this context before. What actions, thoughts, behaviors would change if I actually viewed my marriage as a ministry?

Martin Luther describes marriage this way: "The ultimate purpose is to obey God, to find aid of counsel against sin; to call upon God; to seek love, to educate children for the glory of God; to live with one's wife in the fear of God and to bear the cross." Not a small task if you ask me but one that is critical to the health and future of the children that we are called to raise.

The importance of my role as a Dad to my daughters has been brought up many, many times in this household in relation to how they will choose their future husband. Yikes! This is not something that is very easy to swallow and one area that I admit that I do not spend enough time thinking about or focusing on. Also, in contemplating Martin Luther's words it is apparent that I do indeed have some work to do in this area.

The author gives a great definition in the same chapter about the role of a husband and father and one that I am going to spend some time reflecting on: "Who a man is as a husband and father to a large degree shapes who he is as a minister of the Gospel."

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Have we gone too far?

One of the shared themes that Buttercup and I have discussing and working through lately is the whole idea of what it means to be a Missionary in our culture. If you put on your Sunday School hat for a moment you will remember that Jesus' life was lived by the power of the Holy Spirit as a missionary in culture. However, in my personal opinion we Christians have taken verses such as Romans 12:2 which states "And do not be conformed to this world.." or statements such as "live in the world, but not of the world" too far. I am struggling with this lately in that I seem to run into more and more Christians who are pulling either themselves or their kids out of public society and only surrounding themselves with fellow believers or those of like mindedness. Granted, a large part of the Christian life is to have community with other believers, be in relationship with them and worship communally on a regular basis. Have we forgotten we also need to be in some kind of "community" with non-believers so that we can share our faith (and sometime use words!)?

For instance, I have noticed that Churches and Christians spend a lot of time in the comfort of the "four walls" of a Church talking about how to interact with non-Christians instead of actually being the culture and loving the ones who need Jesus's love the most. We seem to have somewhere along the way forgotten that we are not to judge those who are living lives in sin or lives that we don't agree with but rather show them the love of Jesus that we have within us. The best example that we have for this and maybe have too often forgotten is how Jesus's spent his 30 years on earth. Jesus was the greatest missionary who has or will ever walk this earth and maybe we need to be reminded of how he lived in a sinful culture:

1. Jesus came into a sinful culture
2. Jesus learned firsthand about a sinful culture. As a perfect missionary, Jesus did not learn about the sinful culture from a careful or safe distance. No, Jesus built friendships with sinners, Jesus learned the language of sinners, Jesus ate food with sinners, Jesus drank wine with sinners, and Jesus participated in the parties and holidays of sinners. Of course this really pissed off the religious leaders of his day and is one of the reasons that they wanted to kill him.
3. Jesus did not condone sin, nor did he sin, himself.
(Taken from "Vintage Church" by Mark Driscoll & Gary Breshears)

We each have our own journey that we are on and we need to individually try to figure out how to live out our faith, raise our kids, educate our kids (i.e, Public, Private, Home school) be a light in a dark world, in the best way that we know how. Although, I have many times judged others for their actions or how they live or don't live out their faith in this sinful culture. The harsh reality and one that I need to be reminded of is that I can only focus on my journey and the journey of my family.

The question that remains is that if we can agree that Jesus was the perfect missionary into a sinful culture, then why do we as a community or body of Christians seem to miss the mark when it comes to how we interact with our sinful culture? Why do we tend then to remain separate from society? Why is it easier for us to judge or condone others sinful lifestyle instead of doing what Jesus did, which was to love them?

A very wise friend (lets call him "Father Dan") recently mentioned to me as we were discussing this, that maybe right now in this phase of our life, God is calling us to be in community with our non-Christian neighbors: i.e, co-workers, acquaintances, neighbors, etc.

Something for me to chew on...

Monday, March 2, 2009

The Gospel and a waterslide

I am reading a great book titled "The Blue Parakeet" by Scot McKnight that my Dad sent me. The main theme of the book is to rethink how we read the Bible. Unfortunately, most of us tend to "pick and choose" parts of the Bible that we either like, agree with, or can be obedient to. "Pick and choose" might seem harsh so it might be easier to call it "adapt and adopt" as the author states. However, they are parts that we tend to say "that was then, this is now", etc. The big idea is that we need to read the Bible as a story so that we don't fall into the "adapt and adopt" mentality.
One of the great analogies he uses in the book is about the Gospel and a water slide. I give you the following passage:
"Reading the Bible with our wise mentors is like sliding down a water slide. The gospel is the slide; the Bible is one wall, our teachers and our tradition the other wall, and the water is the Holy Spirit. The pool at the bottom of the slide is our world. If we stay on the slide and inside the walls as we slide down, we will land in our own water world. If we knock down the walls of the slide or get too careless, we can tumble out of the safety of that slide and injure ourselves. However, observe this: our life is lived in the pool. So here's my point: God asks us to listen-attention, absorption, and action- to the gospel story and to read the Bible with our wise mentors who have gone before us; if we do we will land in the pool in our day and in our way."

I have been chewing on the idea of what it means to live in the pool for quite some time. As I mentioned to Toirdhealbheach Beucail today in our phone conversation, the more I understand about the Gospel and really digest it, I realize that Christians as the light are meant to be lived out in the world or our pools and not necessarily in the comfort of the safe 4 walls of a Church. Granted that we do need to worship corporately together but we also need to worship separately which is where living in our pools come in play. I would venture to guess that we tend to focus more on our worship corporately that we do on how we can worship God in our daily lives away from the Church...Something to ponder..

I will leave you with another great nugget I have gained from this book:

"Good works are concrete responses to the needs we see in our neighbors.....This passage in Paul leads me to to the following two conclusions- and they stare at each of us:

-If we are doing good works, you are reading the Bible right
-If we are not doing good works, you are not reading the Bible right"

What can I do moving forward to make sure that I am not spending most of my time in the second group?

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Who or what is your cornerstone?

For those of you who know me realize that I probably could never be mistaken for a contractor or builder, which is probably wise that I choose sales as my profession. However, even I know that one of the very basics of building anything is to start with a strong foundation or cornerstone (there's our word) to build upon. In 1 Peter 2:4, it describes Jesus as a "living stone" and in 1 Peter 2:6 it states "Behold, I am laying in Zion a stone, a cornerstone chosen and precious..." Is Jesus my cornerstone? Lets get back to that in a bit...

As I listen to this being preached on Sunday the obvious question that came to mind is what kind of foundation have I built my life and my families life on? What is the one thing or things that are the crucial stone or cornerstone that is evident in my life? If this is evident based on my actions or responses it could be a wide range of things, some good some bad. Worry, pride, stress, possessions, identity, Jesus, The Bible, relaxation, anger, to name just a few. However, can I put my finger on the one cornerstone?

Now, back to my original question. If I say that Jesus is my cornerstone and my true identity, shouldn't Jesus show up somewhere in my life? In other words, shouldn't the stones in my life that are connected to the cornerstone (which is everything) represent Jesus? Do I daily remember that my true identity is in Christ and that we who call Jesus our Lord and Savior are part of a Royal Priesthood (1 Peter 2:9)? Maybe this explains why so many times in a week, month, year that life seems to be so out of control or fragile that it feels like breaks or stones are about ready to break. When I choose to go it alone and to try to "build" things on my own, why am I so surprised when they start crumbling?

We don't have to worry about coming up with a answer to who our cornerstone is because our words, works and wealth will reflect this.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Grace....again!

"God drops grace into our lives to show us a glimpse of where we will be going" (Mark Driscoll '09) Am I a grace seeker? Anyone who has spent a good amount of time with me can answer that question without much of a thought. One of the many, many things I love and admire about Buttercup is that she has a way of speaking truth (yes, there is such a thing) into my life about what I need to work on. Being truthful, there are time (most) that I don't appreciate it at the moment, but can look back and see where her heart is and the reason she is so bold about it. This is a reoccurring subject in the Otis/Buttercup household. My lack of grace can usually can be seen in how I react or act towards Buttercup, my daughters, friends and family.


Grace is also tied to hope. which can be described as confident security. This leads to another thought. Is the reason that I struggle with showing Grace because I don't have hope? In myself, in others, in general? Wait, this also can be tied to Faith (see previous post). Is it just me, or are you seeing a trend here? Grace, hope, faith all are related to the heart. I know that even though I have a public education, I can at least see that trend. OK, so these are related now what? It seems like I continue to come back to this same well, over and over again.

What prevents me from showing Grace to those that I love and care for? Why is it that this is not something that comes to mind first, instead of anger, frustration or impatience? Maybe I don't truly appreciate the Grace that has been shown me from God and others. You would think that a person who makes as many mistakes over and over again and struggles in may areas as I do, would understand the importance of expressing Grace to others.

As I think about how I can change this trend I plan on integrating the following three questions into my daily life as a barometer of have I am doing in this area:

1. How is my hope?
2. Where is my faith?
3. Am I being a grace seeker?

Faith and a motorcycle

So I have been struggling for a long time or you could say that a major theme in my life is my issue of not having faith. No, I am not questioning my faith in God but rather the issue of why I tend to worry about everything instead of having faith. Although, one could argue that what kind of faith in God do I really have if instead of trusting fully in Him, I let the stress and worry about things overtake me to the point of frustration and possible many grey hairs! What makes this seem even worse is that faith seems to come much easier to Buttercup.

I tend to bottle my worries up inside until they are peculating within me and usually they get released on whomever seems to be in front of me at that moment. I was taught when I was a kid and continue to be reminded that you can only worry about what you can control and to give it all to God. Easier said than done, if you ask me! There seems to be so many examples recently where others are going through much worse things that I am but seem to exhibit a mountain more faith that I have. You don't have to look very far to see this, if you open up any newspaper or on the web, you will find another stat about a company closing their doors or laying up a large portion of their work force. I think of my dear friend Toirdhealbheach Beucail and the trial that he is going through right now, in looking for employment in such difficult times. I also think of my brother who is dealing with some very difficult relationships and the stress and worry that comes with it. Yes, there have been some changes to our home finances due to a pay cut and the slow economy hurting our compensation payout and raising two daughters, there never seems to be a lack of things that can consume my mind with worry. This includes future plans that Buttercup and I have in regards to home improvements, education, etc.

What does this have to do with a motorcycle, you may ask? I had the pleasure of going for a long ride last weekend (yes, we actually do see the sun every now and then). As I enjoyed the adrenaline that you find on a sport bike and the excitement of both taking the curves at a greater speed than you would in a car and the scenery that one finds on many of the winding, country roads in the area. I suddenly realized that being on my bike is one of the few things in my life that I don't tend to struggle with Faith. In a strange way that I can't really describe, I just have total faith when I am on my bike. Now, don't get me wrong the WA state drivers still freak me out at times but I still don't have a problem putting my faith into God's hands as I enjoy this testosterone driving activity.

I want to live a life where I can put my entire faith and being into God's hands and to be able to say "do with me as you will" with a open and generous heart. There are many signs and reminders of the things that God has done in my life but why is it that unless it smacks me in the mouth, I can't seem to remember that?

As it states in 1 Peter 3:7 that "our faith is more precious than Gold". This doesn't mean that we don't have reasons to be concerned or worried. In the previous verse it talks about grieving through our trials. I heard our Pastor describe it that we need to sometimes grieve down to the core of who we are and then rejoice in the mercies of God and what He has done for us and will continue to do for us. Grieve first for a little while, and then rejoice.

What can I do today to start building a deeper faith, one that is more valuable that anything I have or could every have within myself?